why do i feel so anxious?!

sure, i had an energy drink for breakfast and a coke at lunch but i am more hyped than usual. i feel like my tummy is doing flip flops like its full of butterflies but i am not nervous, so what gives? ugh. oh well, its a nice change from the stuffy nose and sore throat i have had the past few days. i can finally breath normally making it easier to deal with my caffeine induced (maybe?) shaking hands.

it may have to do with the fact that i am extremely stressed. long story short: i have decided to sell my car. although i love my cute red 94 honda civic... it is time to let it go. most of my friends and family are impressed and surprised it even made it down here to alabama. basically, the amount of money it would cost to tune up, drive across country, and then tune up again after the 3000 mile trek would be totally unworth it. basically it would be more money than the car is worth. so i recently decided that i would sell my car in about 3 months and then buy another car once i am moved back in seattle.

so then today i get the lovely realizeation my clutch has completely died. it wont last another three months like i had hoped but instead wont even last a week. so now i have to fix it. i have to fix my crappy car so i can still drive it to work even though i am going to sell it soon. if i dont, it will die and i wont be able to get to work... plus, i can't really sell a broken car. no one wants to buy a car that doesnt run. so now i am stuck shelling out money for a run down junker. best part? i dont even have enough money to fix it. not even close. but i have no choice. so my paychecks will be going towards it meaning i have to keep my job for income, but the income will be wasted on a crappy car. ugh. luckily this might all be bettert than i think because it looks as if brian will help chip in since i guess we are a 'team' now and all (aww cute! i love him!) plus the problem might not be as costly as i expected.

so i have to leave work early to take it in to the shop for an estimate. i am jittery and stressed and financially wrung out waiting to go take my broken car that i was going to sell anyway to a automotive place to get fixed. ugh. i can only hope the quote i get is not outrageous and my anxiety will leave after that. otherwise, it will be hard to enjoy a friday with a rumbly tummy.

man, what a waste of a good friday. stress and butterflies. at least i can sleep in tomorrow... oh no wait i cant. i have to work my second job tomorrow morning. yippee. fine - nap tomorrow afternoon it is! HA!

P.S. - know anyone wanting to sell their car in a few months who lives in seattle? let me know! i might be interested. it would be nice having a car waiting for me when i get home versus have to look for that, plus a job, a place to live, and everything else all at once.